Power plays

Sometimes I am not the brightest bulb on the marquee. I think I may have to watch my step over the next few night of the show -so I won't get sucked into a power struggle with my stage manager (SM). I hate when this happens - when girls get into these stupid, petty, and largely unconscious status games. It's my own fault too . I think I know best, and I try to make everything perfect, but then I step on somebody's toes n the process. The SM is in charge- the problem is I don't trust her ability to make decisions. Last night I got reprimanded by her for "slapping Jacqueline's hand" (Jacqueline is in charge of costumes). What happened is they started the music before we were in places so I rushed to the door and grabbed it at the same time the Jacqueline reached for the door to open it as well. I suppose The SM thought I should have stopped to say sorry instead of going to my entrance? Sigh See what I mean ? Petty
What makes it worse is - my part is a very sad one. By the end of the show, I'm emotionally tired. I don't have the resilience to deal with this kind of status/ power minefield. I am much more liable to say something that could turn this potential trouble into a living hell for the next few weeks . Girls, (and I use that term intentionally), can be wonderfully awful in the most underhanded and insidious ways. Any woman who has endured high school will know what I'm talking about.
Grace- I am praying for grace and peace to descend upon me